What exactly are we trying to accomplish during Great Lent? Is it simply to attend services and change our diet? Or are these a means to an end?
Of course, this question is as generic as it is important. In recent weeks, there has been a wave of opinions in Russian-language internet publications (including Pravoslavie i mir) claiming that Great Lent should not be about food, that there is a higher purpose, that if you want to have oil, or fish, or milk–go right ahead, so long as you fulfil the spiritual obligations of Lent or at least do not quarrel with your neighbor… Unfortunately, these articles are often read by people who do not fast anyway, and now have a reason not to even try to fast. Fortunately, these “theologumena,” even when coming from respected Moscovite priests, are not likely to affect those people who are really trying to fast and have experienced the profound spiritual benefits of fasting.
We cannot but agree with the statement that Great Lent is not about dieting. Indeed, the Church usually tells us what something is about right within its services. During the Lenten period, we have the Sunday of the Publican and the Pharisee, that of the Prodigal Son, the Forgiveness Sunday, the Sunday of Orthodoxy and one of St. Gregory Palamas, the Veneration of the Cross, the Sunday of St. John of the Ladder and of St. Mary of Egypt, Palm Sunday–nowhere do we see a Raw-Vegetable Sunday or a Pickles-and-Bread Sunday. Dieting is certainly (at least, according to the Orthodox Church) not the point of Great Lent.
This, however, does not mean that the “dietary” part of Great Lent is not important. If we think of the dietary part as a tool–a hammer, for example–then we can clearly say that the point of building something is not so one can have a chance to use his hammer. The point of building is in a temple or a house or a shed, and in their final use. In the same way, dietary restrictions are merely a tool, a “hammer,” but not the building. But try pounding nails in with your bare hands! Sure, some (very few) people can do this at a carnival, but most of us really need the hammer. In the same way, I am certain that some people can build the temple of the Holy Spirit in their soul without any “dieting,” but most of us can really use this very effective tool… And the Fathers seem to agree.
I prefer to think of fasting as an exercise. Before winning a gold medal at the Olympics, an athlete does a lot of warm-ups, workouts, and–yes–proper eating–none of which is the goal in and of itself: it’s the medal that the athlete wants. But without all of this training, he or she cannot hope to win anything at all! Sure, it is the heavenly crowns that we all want, but if we are but slaves to our bellies, if we cannot even make the first step and instead desperately keep looking for excuses to please our gut–oil in glass bottles is somehow ”lenten,” and lobster tails are “lenten,” and who-knows-what-else is also “lenten”–can we truly hope to win anything other than a seat on a couch in front of the television set, watching others get the crowns as we munch on our chips and pop-corn?! Nothing in this comment is meant to diminish the role of reason, pastoral guidance, and plain common sense. But if you want that gold, you just have to get on those skis or skates and push youself…
Orthodoxy and the World http://www.pravmir.com/article_890.html
Personal Bio: Flunked Bio in the 9th grade. My teacher was hot, though.
What brought you to Twitter & when was that?: I think it was in August ‘09…I don’t really remember…but I wanted to see what all the excitement was about, so I signed on. It was disappointing, it felt lame to post crap no one else would care to see. When I got my first follower, it scared me. I didn’t know that’s how it worked– so I deleted my account immediately. My daughter talked me into trying it out again, and if I hadn’t found True Blood RP’s I wouldn’t have stayed. But I am a True Blood fanatic, and once I found @SookieBonTemps and everyone else, I became a Twitter junkie. It was on Twitter that I found out about the Sookie books, and I read them all in about three weeks.
How did you choose your @ name?: I was always referring to myself as a “granny” anyway, and then one night… @VampireBill spoke to me *chills* I could actually almost hear his voice… and asked me if he could call me “Grannie” and it just sounded so right…and I was swooning…… um…back to the story…so I decided right then that I would change my @ name to Granni_Annie.
VampireBill @RavnVoice Grannie Annie. May I call you that? *grins*
Granni_Annie ATTENTION: I have changed my username… formerly @RavnVoice is now @Granni_Annie! It’s still me, sweeties!!
Why is Bill your Vamp?: He’s kind, courteous, and a true gentleman. I just love that about him. No matter how risque’ the conversation becomes, he never crosses the line and is never disrespectful to any of the ladies…. that turns me on more than any crotch shot of bonerpants, though I do appreciate the eye candy. I’m very much like Bill in the sense that Sookie re-awakend him…Bill re-awakened something in me that I thought was all dried up and full of moths. *blushes* It’s not all about the sex, either…it’s all in the delivery of the words, the look in his eyes…the body language. *looking off in a daydream* I wouldn’t mind one bit to have 3 pounds of graveyard dirt in my crack, lets put it that way!
Favorite Bill book/show quote: The look of awe in his face when he and Sookie first make love…when he realizes that he is her first… I’m no good at quotes. I have a real bad memory in that department…but when Bill and Sookie split up and she goes with Eric…I hate to admit it, but I was glad…I never really felt like she deserved him.
Favorite Bill photo: I don’t have any photos of Bill, I usually look at yours, so pick one, any one–they’re all good!
Favorite character from the books/show aside from Bill: I adore Pam, she’s outspoken and her wit is so cutting you don’t even realize when she’s drawn blood.
Favorite @VampireBill moment: I love it when the Belles are all on at once with Bill, each one backing him into a corner almost…and all he can come up with is *ROARING LAUGHTER* cause he knows he’s outnumbered.
What would you like to see happen on Twitter before season 3 of True Blood?: I really miss the skits. But mostly I just wish @VampireBill was on more often, and would call me “Granny” again…*sigh*
Who is your favorite @ character? Other than Bill, of course: @FangtasiaGinger she’s a hoot with her lucite high heels. My favorite tweet of hers was “It’s FA-REEZIN’ !!”
Naturally, we needed a little girl picture of our Grannie Belle. Welcome Aboard!
So this is my first interview for 2010 with my new black book! I like to keep it anonymous so I won’t tell you who it is with (don’t worry they said I could publish their answers on here), it’s just interesting to find out other points of view. Enjoy!
1. What would your first question be if you were to interview me? A: Did you like that play I did in year 12?
Me: Yeah and I got a better mark than you!
A: Fuck you!
2. What would your first question be if you were to interview an Eskimo? A: Do you run out of water?
3. What is your favourite book? Why? A: Kings in Grass Castles. When I was little it was basically what I wanted to do. I wanted to be a farmer, but run the shit. Be the boss. unfortunately I turned out to be a city boy. Closely followed by Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.
4. Vegemite or Jam. A. Vegemite – No question. A little bit of Vegemite, butter and cheese! I actually have a photo of one I made the other day.
Me: That’s terrible.
A: It was a competition I had with a girl… She won.
5. If you were going to write a song what would it be about. A: I always write songs. I’ve always wanted to write 1 song, I think I’ve told you this. Keeping a mystery in a relationship, not knowing everything about a person from day one. That songs not going so well.
6. What troubles you the most? A: Right now, or overall?
Me: Right now.
A: I just need to find a house (laughs). No I lie, actually number 1 problem, the girl I want to be with has a boyfriend.
Me: (Laughs) Ok let’s try for overall:
I really don’t have overall problem, I’m all about the moment. What’s yours?
Me: I’m bored. I don’t ever feel fulfilled in what I do.
7. What is more important. A question or an answer? A: An answer. Call me Confucius! (laughs)
Me: But without a question there would be no need to answer!
A: Answers sometimes don’t come from questions
8. When do you think you’ll be satisfied or feel complete fulfillment? A: The day I complete my degree. It will be the most content I’ll ever be, I’ll be the happiest person in the world.
9. Eyes or lips? Face or body? A: Eyes without a doubt. If a girl has green eyes. WOW! Sometimes you have to look for them. Do you have green eyes?
Me: Yeah. So Face or body?
A: Face – body, I don’t give a shit about as long as she’s not fat (laughs). I’m just a sucker for a cute face. I’m completely useless.
10. Knowledge is important but are you any wiser by reading newspapers and contemporary authors? A: To a degree, you do gain some sort of knowledge but then you’re being fed what other people what you to know. Put it this way by reading Harry Potter – I now appreciate the little things.
Me: Why I ask this is because Einstein thought you weren’t, that it couldn’t promote original thought.
A: I guess what we have to do then is to define wise. No it probably wouldn’t promote original thought because there were guys hundreds of years ahead of us so they had the chance to discover and create theories, we now go off what they have proved. Back to Harry Potter. It’s a kids book. But its’ made me a more open person, it’s taught me lessons. It’s changed my perspective to a positive degree and that’s a good thing.
11. How to you practice belief/religion? A: By being a good person, doing the right thing by people. I’m catholic and I haven’t been to church in three years. My i-phone is my religion. It’s a dream boat.
12. If you had to make an outfit how would you go about it and what would it look lie? A: Ideal outfit? It would not be something I’m making! (laughs) If I had to make something… Have you seen the Last Samurai with Tom Cruise?
Me: Yeah
A: I’d be Tom Cruise with all that metal stuff. No-one would mess with me. Or an Avatar. I’d have to be capable.
13. What is your personal style? A: Limited. I dare say I dress less casual than I should. I wear long sleeves everywhere I go. I wear long sleeves to the bathroom. I’m pretty generic, but I don’t gain solace by wearing original stuff or through showing my personality through my clothes. I just wear whatever will get me that brunette with green eyes.
14: Any last words? A: I should say something profound here. But I’m not really a profound person. You’re looking very nice today.
Sue Lange has two books of science fiction satire out: Tritcheon Hash and We, Robots. Her multimedia extravaganza, The Textile Planet, was published by Book View Cafe (BVC) in 2008. BVC also recently put out her collection, Uncategorized, and they will be publishing We, Robots as an ebook in March.
Thanks for the interview, Sue! Why don't you start by telling us a bit about your latest book, and what inspired you to write it?
My latest book is actually, "Uncategorized," a collection of my previously published short stories. The collection is aptly named. There is no one genre that they fit in, except, maybe slipstream. There's an air of weirdness to each one, but other than that they are pretty much unrelated. Each story was inspired by a different thing, so there's no easy way to answer that question. Interestingly enough, though, I included a paragraph or two before each story to talk about what it was that inspired each story. That was a nice thing to be able to do since, for the most part, it didn't get done when they had been published in the magazines or zines or wherever they were first put out.
Have you ever suffered from writer's block?
I've never had this problem, but that's mostly because I've never had to write to a deadline. I don't have a contract to write three novels by the end of the year. It would be nice to know someone is waiting for my work, but on the other hand, I'm not a fan of pressure so it's good that I don't have that sort of contract to work under. I like things to happen in their own sweet time. So if I don't have something to write about, I don't write. I don't consider it a writer's block, I just don't have anything to say. People with writer's block either have no deadlines or have nothing to say. Or maybe they have something to say but something like fear is preventing them from saying it.
What seems to work for unleashing your creativity?
Sleep.
How was your experience in looking for a publisher? What words of advice would you offer those novice authors who are in search of one?
I've never looked hard for a publisher. I've worked with two different ones now. The first one, Metropolis Ink, I happened upon because a friend of mine had just published with them. I asked her about whether or not they were taking on new authors and she suggested I send them a manuscript. They were in a position to accept it so it all worked out. I didn't really know about agents or anything, I just contacted the publisher directly. I came across the second publisher, Aqueduct Press, when I was doing an event with Nancy Jane Moore after Tritcheon Hash got published. I got to know the publisher, Timmi Duchamp, and eventually sent her the manuscript for We, Robots. I do try to get agents interested in my work, but so far I have not been fortunate in that area. It's hard to find agents for weird, slipstream type stuff. I guess. The only advice I have is if you can't find an agent or a publisher, hire an editor before you self-publish. And absolutely do not self-publish is you are not a salesman before you are a writer.
What type of book promotion seems to work the best for you?
For book promotion, I like live events, but it's harder to get people out for live events than it is to get them to buy books so I'm not sure it's a cost effective method of promotion. I just like doing them. I enjoy performance. Other than that, I like writing my blog because I like to write. I despise talking about my books and trying to get people to buy them so I don't do it well, therefore it doesn't seem to work for me.
Share with us some writing tips!
Read what you like. Steal ideas from what you read. Rinse and repeat. (Oh, and when you get caught for plagiarism, please don't tell anybody Sue Lange told you to do that.)
What authors or type of books do you read for fun?
I love Stansilaw Lem. And I'm trying to concentrate on short stories in my own writing so I've been reading a lot of anthologies. I recently discovered Brian Evenson and Dan Marcus. Dan Marcus suggested I check out a slipstream collection edited by James Patrick Kelly so I'm enjoying that. I like anything that's intellectually funny. Garrison Keillor. I'm not overly fond of slapstick or farce. I think fart jokes are overrated. I'm done with scatological humor. But anything else is fabulous.
Do you think a critique group is essential for a writer?
These days yes. There are so many people writing nowadays, you can't just be talented. You have to be polished and perfect. Besides writing is a lonely undertaking. Best to get out and meet up at a bar or bookstore or somebody's house and share a cup of coffee or a shot of whiskey or a bag of pot. Do you have a website/blog where readers may learn more about you and your work?
Website: http://www.suelangetheauthor.com
blog: Singularity Watch: Rapture of the Nerds: http://suelange.wordpress.com
Do you have another novel on the works? Would you like to tell readers about your current or future projects?
I'm working through some short stories, a novel entitled The Perpetual Motion Club, and a non-fiction memoir-type thing called RTFM: My life and times in tech. By the time this interview is published, I'm sure all of this will change.
Is there anything else you'd like to tell my readers?
What was it like to work with co-star Robert Pattinson? Did you spend time getting to know each other before filming or during to create chemistry?
We had a really great time working together. Instead of just doing a scene and reading your lines, it felt like I was just reacting to him and the situation which made it feel very natural and un-forced. Probably the case because not only did we get along really well– we made a point of being on the same page as each other to do with our characters’ relationship. Not reading over and over scenes, but more talking about them and our characters and finding moments one or both of us hadn’t noticed before. I think really getting to know someone helps a lot with having believable chemistry on-screen.
Other than the Ally/Tyler relationship, which do you think is the best relationship in the film and why?
Ruby and Rob who play Caroline and Tyler-They had such a great chemistry together. Even though there’s a big age difference between the characters they have such an adult relationship. Tyler could not be more caring and protective of Caroline and goes to great lengths to try and make her father understand and be there for her.
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I first met Jeannie years ago at a SNAP conference. I continue to appreciate her wisdom, honesty, transformation and joy.
JR: Thank you for participating in this interview. I experience you as a nurturer or guide in various kinds of survivor healing efforts: the Farm, SNAP, and individual support. How would you describe your kind of advocacy?
JW: Back in the early 90’s, Jaime, when everything ‘hit the fan’ for me, I was overwhelmed with memories of the abuse. They didn’t seem ‘real’ – I felt totally out of control of my life and yes, crazy, for lack of a better word. I started hearing about other people with similar experiences. I started reaching out – I jumped into the advocacy movement of exposing the crimes of the church without much focus on my personal journey towards healing. I researched priest’s assignments through the church directories for people all over the country; I worked with a reporter to expose the issues locally; supported other survivors… It took quite awhile and painful insight to realize that in my personal journey, I was using all the activity to keep one step ahead of my-self and outrun, so to speak, the work I had to do to reclaim my life and really heal my soul.
For me, now, advocacy has a much different meaning in my life journey. It’s much more ‘quiet’. I’m learning that responding, versus reacting to situations opens up opportunities to share my story and hopefully that offers support in a way that encourages people to ask more questions. Being observant and respectful of people’s ability to take in the scope of the traumatic effects of any kind of abuse is a tough challenge, when it can trigger my old pattern of outrage and the adrenaline rush of needing to challenge and change institutions and systems that enable abuse. I believe that becoming the person I was meant to be in this life – healthy physically, mentally, emotionally and especially spiritually – is an extremely powerful force that can instill hope and affect change. Encouraging other survivors to truly become them-selves is where the heart of my advocacy focus is now.
JR: You’re someone I see as deeply spiritual. What was your religious affiliation or identity growing up?
JW: I was raised Catholic; grade school education through a couple of years of college. However, I don’t equate spiritual with religious affiliation/identity anymore.
JR: We’ve talked about how, as unspeakable clergy or religious authority sexual abuse is, ritual abuse is even more difficult and upsetting for most people to even think about. What are your concerns and hopes about even discussing this topic?
JW: I have to say that even now, after so many years, my heart seems to skip a beat and I’m forgetting to breathe with this question. I wish I could say that it’s become a topic people are more willing to learn or talk about – at least think about – but in my personal experience, that’s not the case. This kind of abuse is very underground – a closed system usually involving groups of abusers. This elevates the danger involved in exposing this kind of abuse tremendously, which never should be taken lightly. And then there’s the credibility factor: exposing an individual priest as an abuser – doable; exposing ritual abuse groups within the church….?
The nature of the abuse itself – the grooming process, the ‘brainwashing’, the trauma itself, the isolation and the real, possible danger for the survivors are all things I’ve thought about through the years as I’ve processed my memories. In years past, I’ve asked questions of people much more in the know than I and I’ve always run up against doors that quickly close, but there are indications that there’s info known. Maybe someday. My concerns and hope go out to those who have experienced this kind of abuse; they are definitely not alone with their memories.
JR: Given that, can you say a little about your abuse experience?
JW: I experienced group ritual abuse involving priests and lay people. I was very young when it started and the ‘grooming’ process and abuse was extensive and traumatic. As I’ve mentioned before, my memories flooded out during a short period of time back in the early 90’s. It was years before I let myself talk about my memories outside of therapy or read about ritual abuse because I was terrified that I’d ‘imprint’ false memories into my brain. After a couple of years, through internet support groups like SNAP, I came into contact with other ritual abuse survivors. Time and time again upon hearing their experiences and me sharing mine, there were ‘rituals’ that were the same – people from all over the country. One gentleman even had known one of the priests involved in my abuse and talked about the priest’s abusive behavior towards him.
At a VOTF conference a man who was from a town where some of my abuse took place and was very familiar with a particular church building, knew exactly the room I described where I was taken to after a ceremony – down to a very unique door; I spoke with 2 women who suffered similar abuse in a parish very close to the parish I grew up in. Someday I hope that ritual abuse will be exposed – my experience certainly is not an isolated case.
JR: What have been some of your challenges in recovery/ healing?
JW: Certainly the credibility factor was a big issue for me at first. At first I kept my ‘flooded’ memories kind of off to the side. As I put pieces together, my life ’story’ started to have a continuum that I never experienced before. I began to realize that I had always remembered so much more than I thought. A therapist I worked with would tell me over and over again that I had all the ‘answers’ inside of me…yeah, right! It’s turned out to be so true.
Another huge challenge in the beginning was the extreme changes that happened in my everyday life. I was a small business owner at the time who couldn’t run the business anymore in a town where I was pretty visible. Many catholic friends and many family members wrote me off – no questions about what happened – only condemnation. Everything in my life shifted. Nothing on my list of challenges is unique, for sure. Today, there are still challenges that pop up, but I’ve learned how to identify them, track them down, and deal with them in a healthy way. Not always easy, but certainly makes for a happier life!
JR: I think you have some valuable insights about re-programming (physically, mentally, emotionally) as part of healing from religious authority sexual abuse. Can you share some of what you’ve learned?
JW: Programming, Jaime, is SUCH a good word to use in describing the healing process! Physically…. I never knew that people “in the normal range” (I like to use that phrase versus just “normal”) felt their whole body at the same time! I grew up very disconnected from my body. I had to deal with many body memories throughout my recovery process. CraniolSacral massage therapy was extremely difficult but tremendously beneficial. (Very important to work with a therapist thoroughly trained to work with trauma victims!) I had to literally re-train my body to feel connected and remember touch and energy flow.
Mentally….. The first thing that comes to mind was my discovery that I had to go back and re-define words! What does “being safe” really mean? – much more than that I won’t be hurt today.
What does “friendship” really mean? – much deeper than someone just paying attention to me at the moment. etc. As a child being traumatized, I latched onto meanings that helped me survive. As an adult I had to re-define so many words through healthier eyes and experiences. Throughout my whole life, I’ve experienced situations where I can’t remember things no matter how hard I try. I’ve done a lot of reading about how trauma, especially early age trauma, affects the development of memory and that’s helped a lot in my understanding this difficulty. As a child it was far safer not to remember.
I’ve re-programmed my-self now to try and intercept the “you’re so stupid” etc. self-talk when my memory blanks out and slowly the “garage doors” – as I call them – don’t slam closed as often. Through CraniolSacral massage I’ve learned how to open them when they do. Present day stress at times still plays havoc on my memory and it’s a signal I have to pay attention to what’s going on.
Emotionally…. Again, from that very wise therapist who traveled with me on my healing journey… ‘my thoughts and emotions don’t define who I am – it’s what I do with them that matters’. It took me a long time to understand and realize that I did have control over what I did with my thoughts and emotions. I can go ballistic over something OR I could choose to simply look at it and respond in the best, healthiest, kindest, etc. way I could figure out. I’ll never forget a ‘homework’ assignment my therapist gave me during a time suicide seemed like a possible option to take away the emotional pain. I was to write down all the intrusive, depressive thoughts in one column – opposite I was to write down a minimum of 3 counter-active thoughts for each one. Example: I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. Choice: I could make a cup of tea and cuddle on my sofa with a blanket; go out into my garden; take a nap but set the alarm for 30 minutes. After the list was made I was to CHOOSE just one and act on it. A life changing exercise for me! I discovered I was scared to death of going outside the box of emotions and thoughts that were familiar and predictable – being happy was outside the box! In fact, I didn’t even know what being happy meant (another word I had to re-define for my-self). It took so much practice but now I know I can choose to live my life with a serene outlook even in the toughest circumstances. When it doesn’t happen easily, I can choose to do an attitude adjustment – my choice!
JR: Would you talk about your spiritual journey? What has been helpful? What have you gained?
JW: This is where my life now feels most fulfilled – in my spiritual journey. I feel I’ve finally made a connection to this world and universe. The most helpful breakthrough? Probably the recognition that the religious training (I prefer the word brainwashing) I took in throughout my school years had no critical thinking component – just the ‘believe us;’the church demands adherence. For me, breaking free of the tentacles of guilt, shame, fear, etc of leaving the church has been a long, hard fought journey. Watching survivors and supporters stand up to the church and expose the abuse and hypocrisy -so incredibly courageous – was an encouragement for me to grapple with the tough questions I needed to ask about the church myself. In the practice of just being quiet within my-self, I’ve come to know the God within me. I was created in God’s image – that I still fully believe and I have a purpose in this life. Learning to be in the present moment, I’ve become aware of how we’re all inter-connected in this universe.
JR: We’ve talked in the past about the addictive aspects of advocacy work or what happens for some survivors who take up public actions to expose abuse. What do you mean by that?
JW: I shared at the beginning of this interview about how I discovered I was using advocacy as a way to “out run” my dealing with the trauma of my childhood. My body learned very early in life how to kick in that adrenaline “rush” to help me survive the abuse and stay vigilant. The ‘rush’ became what I defined as feeling like I was alive. When I attended press conferences, support meetings, just getting together with survivors in my early days of advocacy, I began to notice that a collective agitation, anger often times surfaced and we ran with it…a feeling of being alive…but with an addictive quality to it.
Over the years, it saddens me to see some survivors stuck in that whirlwind… stuck in the beginning stages of healing with such raw emotions, anger, tears, clinging to the whirlwind because it is familiar and familiar often times “feels” safe. Advocacy can be empowering but it’s not a substitution for one-on-one therapy. What if we began to place the healing of survivors on the same priority level as advocacy? I think the time has come for us to take care of our own.
JR: What has worked for you to be less in a ‘Fight-Flight’ or ‘reactive’ mode, and more in an spiritually integrative mode in your day to day life?
JW: This is an easy question…….remembering to BREATHE!! Does all kinds of good things. It gives me a pause to reflect and CHOOSE a response instead of a knee-jerk re-action; my whole-self gets a chance to participate in my-life moment; often times, with a moment of reflection, it becomes clear that whatever was rearing up to knock me off balance, really wasn’t all that important.
JR: What is your sacred space now or what is sacred to you now?
JW: I think the sacred spiritual space for me now is when I feel connected to the universe; when I sense my purpose in life, guided by the creator of this world; when my inside matches my outside. What’s sacred to me now? Everything! My children, friends, my garden, waking up in the morning I’ve learned to celebrate even the smallest pleasures. Someday, I’m going to be successful in encouraging survivors and supporters to gather together JUST to celebrate. Everyone’s invited!
JR: I know there is so much more to talk about and learn together. Thank you for your time and sharing. I hope to continue our conversation another time. Thank you!